Music: The Deal show on CBS
2:45p
This has been a good week for me: I've finally caught up on sleep, started on a workout routine for the first time in 5 months, got more organized and put some more stuff in the garage sale box, and caught up with friends. I also just made one year at the warehouse yesterday. I'm so proud of how far I've come, how much I've learned, and how much I've grown as a person. A year ago, I couldn't see my future; I didn't know how long I would last. I was ready to give up so many times, and towards the end I'd lost all hope, until I got the news that changed everything. 5 months later, I'm in a VERY good position. I just got my raise, plus another raise, plus I am ever closer to making 6 months hauling. I am hanging on by a hair; I saw my report from a couple weeks ago. The weekly was just below goal, I mean a hair's away from being 95%. I was so mad, and I panicked a little bit, until I flipped the page and saw my 4 week, which was 97%. And yes, I did double check to cover my bases (admit it, you saw that coming!). As long as one or the other score is 95% or above, then you're good. And that low score came from the week us haulers were locked into only hauling from 4 doors each, no back-hauling, nothing! And lucky me was down on the complete opposite end of D dock, 801. So mad! Not one hauler made their numbers that day, that should be illegal, and when they want to complain about us not making our goal, DON'T LOCK US INTO DOORS LIKE THAT! Whew. Okay, rant done.
I am one month away! Then I can (hopefully) relax a bit, and actually start to have fun with the job (not that I'm not already-flying around the warehouse on a machine is fun as hell!). So yeah, happy anniversary to me, and happy almost 6 months. I can do this!
And now, the bad news. I received word yesterday that my uncle is in the hospital. I'm not sure exactly what he had, but they got him to the hospital, and he is in a medically-induced coma. I'm hoping he will be okay. It doesn't look good, and my dad is upset and worried. Prayers are appreciated, and I'll update when I can. I just lost my other uncle three years ago (almost to the day), I really don't want to lose another one. I'm going up to the hospital later on to be with family.
Until something changes, hopefully for the better, I'm going to get through my only work day tomorrow, and enjoy my weekend. Because life still must go on, and I'm sure he'd want it that way. This has been a good week, can't wait to continue it tomorrow night.
Peace.
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Make the madness stop! *hides before becoming next victim*
Music: "Roll the Drums" by Autoerotique
4:08p
...I'm talking about the flu, of course. I'm not sure what the hell is going on! Everyone around me is getting sick, and one of my friends just told me he had it. That did it; that hit too close to home for me, so now I'm doing all I can to not catch this shit. I'm taking medicine, trying to get enough rest, washing my hands a bazillion times a day. I don't want to be next! Sad truth is, if I get sick, it's either go get a shot and be able to use sick time at work, or go to work sick, and die from the cold temps. This is some of the worst I've seen. I hate this time of year! I've gone a year without being sick. Let's see how long I can keep up this streak....
I am now more motivated than ever to start getting back into shape. I'm foaming at the mouth waiting for Spring to arrive, so I can go bike riding again, tone up my legs and get back to what I was when I was unloading trucks. I'm getting back into dancing again, the old routines I used to do back in high school (can't believe I still remember them!). I forgot how good it felt after a workout. I can do this! I'll be swimsuit ready in no time. And for the love of God, I've got to start eating better! Yeah, this is going to be awesome! :)
I'm leaving this short, I'm supposed to be getting ready for work, but old habits die hard. I'm ready to get my last weekend (so to speak) over with! Look out boss lady, here I come, with a newfound aggressiveness and an I'm-not-taking-your-shit attitude! Hell yeah!
4:08p
...I'm talking about the flu, of course. I'm not sure what the hell is going on! Everyone around me is getting sick, and one of my friends just told me he had it. That did it; that hit too close to home for me, so now I'm doing all I can to not catch this shit. I'm taking medicine, trying to get enough rest, washing my hands a bazillion times a day. I don't want to be next! Sad truth is, if I get sick, it's either go get a shot and be able to use sick time at work, or go to work sick, and die from the cold temps. This is some of the worst I've seen. I hate this time of year! I've gone a year without being sick. Let's see how long I can keep up this streak....
I am now more motivated than ever to start getting back into shape. I'm foaming at the mouth waiting for Spring to arrive, so I can go bike riding again, tone up my legs and get back to what I was when I was unloading trucks. I'm getting back into dancing again, the old routines I used to do back in high school (can't believe I still remember them!). I forgot how good it felt after a workout. I can do this! I'll be swimsuit ready in no time. And for the love of God, I've got to start eating better! Yeah, this is going to be awesome! :)
I'm leaving this short, I'm supposed to be getting ready for work, but old habits die hard. I'm ready to get my last weekend (so to speak) over with! Look out boss lady, here I come, with a newfound aggressiveness and an I'm-not-taking-your-shit attitude! Hell yeah!
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Well, ain't that a bitch.
Music: iTunes playlist
5:30p
I swear to God, if I don't stop getting ahead of myself, I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I'm all over the place, and I thought for sure I wasn't working this weekend. I just found out that, sure enough, I'll be at the warehouse all this weekend. Why can't it be the 2nd, already?? ahhhh!
Anxiety has set in all over again, and it only took 30 minutes. My boss will be back this weekend, and every male (okay, *normal* male) will be bitching about the Stupidbowl. Which means that I'll have to hear it all weekend, and I was prepared to not have to hear it. Point I'm trying to make is, I had the right days scheduled, just didn't have them right in my head. I need the time off desperately! And this is why! So my boss comes back, that should be interesting, but you know, I'm just going to hop on my machine, throw some pallets in the isles, and ignore her. All weekend long. So now I have to get back in the mindset of a three day work week. *trudges off to war...*
Okay, so on a positive note: Houston Auto Show. One word: Awesome!! There were some very nice cars there. I got to play with the trucks, but they wouldn't let me play with the Lamborghini's. Haha, big liability issue. :P I got to see Reed Timmer's storm chasing vehicle, the Dominator, up close. And man is that thing *sturdy*! I'm not sure who's vehicles would win, TIV, or the Dominator in that category. The Dominator looks so much bigger in person. The lady running the booth (Reed wasn't there at the show, he's up in OK with Dom1), even opened the door and let me look inside (I was asked not to push any buttons LOL). Amazing! The inside of the vehicle (the base vehicle) is a Chevy Tahoe. I could see all the holes where the cameras used to film 'Storm Chasers' were drilled, up in the headboard. The coating used to protect the Dominator from flying debris is Line-X coating. Very cool! Same stuff they use in the military. I got pics, but no video. Look on my facebook page, they'll be posted very soon.
I saw the two cars I'd had my eye on when I get mine traded in, the Honda Civic, and the Scion TC. Beautiful cars! But I'd say my favorites at the show (minus the Dominator) were the Ford Mustangs. The Shelby was absolutely GORGEOUS. I love cars and trucks!!
I'm off to post pics, and to sulk in the fact that now I have to work all weekend with the rest of the yahoos.
I seriously need to get my head on straight.
Oh, and FYI, they didn't let me push any ugly cars off the roof. Fuckers.
5:30p
I swear to God, if I don't stop getting ahead of myself, I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I'm all over the place, and I thought for sure I wasn't working this weekend. I just found out that, sure enough, I'll be at the warehouse all this weekend. Why can't it be the 2nd, already?? ahhhh!
Anxiety has set in all over again, and it only took 30 minutes. My boss will be back this weekend, and every male (okay, *normal* male) will be bitching about the Stupidbowl. Which means that I'll have to hear it all weekend, and I was prepared to not have to hear it. Point I'm trying to make is, I had the right days scheduled, just didn't have them right in my head. I need the time off desperately! And this is why! So my boss comes back, that should be interesting, but you know, I'm just going to hop on my machine, throw some pallets in the isles, and ignore her. All weekend long. So now I have to get back in the mindset of a three day work week. *trudges off to war...*
Okay, so on a positive note: Houston Auto Show. One word: Awesome!! There were some very nice cars there. I got to play with the trucks, but they wouldn't let me play with the Lamborghini's. Haha, big liability issue. :P I got to see Reed Timmer's storm chasing vehicle, the Dominator, up close. And man is that thing *sturdy*! I'm not sure who's vehicles would win, TIV, or the Dominator in that category. The Dominator looks so much bigger in person. The lady running the booth (Reed wasn't there at the show, he's up in OK with Dom1), even opened the door and let me look inside (I was asked not to push any buttons LOL). Amazing! The inside of the vehicle (the base vehicle) is a Chevy Tahoe. I could see all the holes where the cameras used to film 'Storm Chasers' were drilled, up in the headboard. The coating used to protect the Dominator from flying debris is Line-X coating. Very cool! Same stuff they use in the military. I got pics, but no video. Look on my facebook page, they'll be posted very soon.
I saw the two cars I'd had my eye on when I get mine traded in, the Honda Civic, and the Scion TC. Beautiful cars! But I'd say my favorites at the show (minus the Dominator) were the Ford Mustangs. The Shelby was absolutely GORGEOUS. I love cars and trucks!!
I'm off to post pics, and to sulk in the fact that now I have to work all weekend with the rest of the yahoos.
I seriously need to get my head on straight.
Oh, and FYI, they didn't let me push any ugly cars off the roof. Fuckers.
Stupid TV for making me emotional!
Music: EKG-"Autoerotique"
11:30p
I just watched the finale of 'Flashpoint.' Great finale. I watched that show for four years, and fell in love with it. I loved the suspense and drama. And the characters. I actually started watching because of Amy Johnson, and really got into the show. Of course, like everything else, it has to end. One by one, my favorite shows are biting the dust. I'm quickly losing any shows that have that Oh-my-God-I-have-to-be-home-to-watch-it-and-don't-disturb-me-when-I'm-watching-because-I'll-kill-you appeal. TV is getting so bad, now that Flashpoint is over, I really don't have any more shows that I care for. Oh well, I still have my DVD's. :)
I went and got my hair done today. That's one thing crossed off my list this week. Got rid of those stinking batteries finally (God bless RadioShack), which now frees up some space for my work stuff. Not to mention I went and bugged a few friends along the way. Success! My only gripe for today (besides people who don't know how to spell) was the construction along FM 1942. Quit fucking up the roads! What exactly are my taxes paying for? Go fuck up a road elsewhere!! Of course that is really the quickest way for me to get to Baytown. So I had to end up taking I-10 around to Highlands back home. UGH! So now, until they decide they are done fucking up the road, I have to find different ways around to Baytown. Fuckers!!
I am enjoying my long week so far, but why, why does it have to go by so fast? Work wasn't too bad this past weekend. It sucked not having our third party along, but we got by, and Sunday we had help from every area of the warehouse imaginable. Even our RSR was in on the fun, and I've NEVER seen them unloading trailers. The ones that were actually WORKING (heh heh) were telling me how little there was for them to do, and I guess they were desperate to get their hours. My new manager, after observing the whole weekend, told me he thought I was doing a great job. Now THAT was refreshing to hear. I hope he treats our area well, and can bring up our morale.
I forgot what being a night owl was like. Looks like I'll be doing a lot more of that this week. I'll update as the week progresses. Tomorrow I get to go play with the cars and trucks at the Auto Show. Should be fun, especially if they let me push the ugly ones off the roof! :P Okay, so that won't really happen, but the idea is so tempting! I'll have video up on my YouTube page afterwards.
Goodnight.
11:30p
I just watched the finale of 'Flashpoint.' Great finale. I watched that show for four years, and fell in love with it. I loved the suspense and drama. And the characters. I actually started watching because of Amy Johnson, and really got into the show. Of course, like everything else, it has to end. One by one, my favorite shows are biting the dust. I'm quickly losing any shows that have that Oh-my-God-I-have-to-be-home-to-watch-it-and-don't-disturb-me-when-I'm-watching-because-I'll-kill-you appeal. TV is getting so bad, now that Flashpoint is over, I really don't have any more shows that I care for. Oh well, I still have my DVD's. :)
I went and got my hair done today. That's one thing crossed off my list this week. Got rid of those stinking batteries finally (God bless RadioShack), which now frees up some space for my work stuff. Not to mention I went and bugged a few friends along the way. Success! My only gripe for today (besides people who don't know how to spell) was the construction along FM 1942. Quit fucking up the roads! What exactly are my taxes paying for? Go fuck up a road elsewhere!! Of course that is really the quickest way for me to get to Baytown. So I had to end up taking I-10 around to Highlands back home. UGH! So now, until they decide they are done fucking up the road, I have to find different ways around to Baytown. Fuckers!!
I am enjoying my long week so far, but why, why does it have to go by so fast? Work wasn't too bad this past weekend. It sucked not having our third party along, but we got by, and Sunday we had help from every area of the warehouse imaginable. Even our RSR was in on the fun, and I've NEVER seen them unloading trailers. The ones that were actually WORKING (heh heh) were telling me how little there was for them to do, and I guess they were desperate to get their hours. My new manager, after observing the whole weekend, told me he thought I was doing a great job. Now THAT was refreshing to hear. I hope he treats our area well, and can bring up our morale.
I forgot what being a night owl was like. Looks like I'll be doing a lot more of that this week. I'll update as the week progresses. Tomorrow I get to go play with the cars and trucks at the Auto Show. Should be fun, especially if they let me push the ugly ones off the roof! :P Okay, so that won't really happen, but the idea is so tempting! I'll have video up on my YouTube page afterwards.
Goodnight.
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
It's too early to be running out of ideas....
Music: Lizzie Curious- The Melodic Mix, on Soundcloud
11:30p
My week is half over...where did it go? I wish I could slow it down.
I returned home on Sunday night after a very long weekend. My area was called in early, surprisingly. I came home, kissed my bed, and immediately jumped in the shower. Watched the Texans get their asses handed to them (yay!), ate dinner, and was so exhausted that I didn't even make it past 11. Monday morning was so cold and nasty outside, so I decided fuck it, I'll do absolutely nothing today. And that's exactly what I did; didn't bother with my hair, no makeup, didn't even get out of my pj's all day. I facebooked, watched YouTube videos, caught up with Reed's hour long podcast, and laid in bed. I was still tired, but I so needed a lazy day, just to let my body catch up, and have a day where I didn't have to be anywhere, or do anything. It felt great.
Last night I found myself in bed early again. No one was online, nothing good on tv, and I knew I wouldn't make it five minutes into a DVD, so I found an hour long set of trance songs to listen to, and went to bed. I woke up somewhere around 4:30, turned off my computer, and went back to sleep. I woke up with a mission, that I would be productive today. You would think 4 days is like having all the time in the world. With one day already down, this would be the day! I did some running around. Even in the 35 degree weather, and really, it wasn't that cold to me. Yeah, I know you're probably laughing at me for saying that, because of my nature to freeze to death when there is so much as a light breeze. I made a quick trip out to Baytown, found what I was looking for, grabbed a bite to eat, and came right back home. I hate this kind of weather...the cold I can handle now, but this crappy, cloudy, rainy stuff..I can do without.
I hope Spring is quick to come.
I was successful in doing what I had to do, without getting angry or frustrated, or breaking anything, or blowing anything up. Yes, sweet success. I bought new speakers for my laptop, and it's all I can do to keep from cranking up the volume. That's how I blew out my last ones. I'm anxious to really test them out, but I'm not taking my chances.
Yet.
I love my music loud. If I can't feel the power of the beat/bass, it's not loud enough. Probably why I'm half deaf now. I'm enjoying my space here, in my parent's house, because I have that freedom to listen to my music loud (I live upstairs), without complaint. I'm not sure what it will be like when I live in an apartment, and I have neighbors on the other side of the wall. Wonder if they'll mind having a singer/music junkie living nearby? :P Oh, the possibilities....
I'm getting the taxes done and out of the way..so much I didn't know before, and so much of how were are getting screwed! Ugh, I hate this country sometimes. I'm lucky to be getting back what I am, and that puts me ever closer to my goal. I have got to get to March!! It's so far off, but just around the corner. My sentence will be lifted, so to speak. I'll be free! I just have to get there. I'm envisioning Reed on a storm chase now, grunting about how they have to get to the storm before it drops a tornado.
Meanwhile, I've got a couple of dents (literally) to figure out. Someone owes me!
I'm off to go plot revenge. Meanwhile, keep tuned, things are amping up.
11:30p
My week is half over...where did it go? I wish I could slow it down.
I returned home on Sunday night after a very long weekend. My area was called in early, surprisingly. I came home, kissed my bed, and immediately jumped in the shower. Watched the Texans get their asses handed to them (yay!), ate dinner, and was so exhausted that I didn't even make it past 11. Monday morning was so cold and nasty outside, so I decided fuck it, I'll do absolutely nothing today. And that's exactly what I did; didn't bother with my hair, no makeup, didn't even get out of my pj's all day. I facebooked, watched YouTube videos, caught up with Reed's hour long podcast, and laid in bed. I was still tired, but I so needed a lazy day, just to let my body catch up, and have a day where I didn't have to be anywhere, or do anything. It felt great.
Last night I found myself in bed early again. No one was online, nothing good on tv, and I knew I wouldn't make it five minutes into a DVD, so I found an hour long set of trance songs to listen to, and went to bed. I woke up somewhere around 4:30, turned off my computer, and went back to sleep. I woke up with a mission, that I would be productive today. You would think 4 days is like having all the time in the world. With one day already down, this would be the day! I did some running around. Even in the 35 degree weather, and really, it wasn't that cold to me. Yeah, I know you're probably laughing at me for saying that, because of my nature to freeze to death when there is so much as a light breeze. I made a quick trip out to Baytown, found what I was looking for, grabbed a bite to eat, and came right back home. I hate this kind of weather...the cold I can handle now, but this crappy, cloudy, rainy stuff..I can do without.
I hope Spring is quick to come.
I was successful in doing what I had to do, without getting angry or frustrated, or breaking anything, or blowing anything up. Yes, sweet success. I bought new speakers for my laptop, and it's all I can do to keep from cranking up the volume. That's how I blew out my last ones. I'm anxious to really test them out, but I'm not taking my chances.
Yet.
I love my music loud. If I can't feel the power of the beat/bass, it's not loud enough. Probably why I'm half deaf now. I'm enjoying my space here, in my parent's house, because I have that freedom to listen to my music loud (I live upstairs), without complaint. I'm not sure what it will be like when I live in an apartment, and I have neighbors on the other side of the wall. Wonder if they'll mind having a singer/music junkie living nearby? :P Oh, the possibilities....
I'm getting the taxes done and out of the way..so much I didn't know before, and so much of how were are getting screwed! Ugh, I hate this country sometimes. I'm lucky to be getting back what I am, and that puts me ever closer to my goal. I have got to get to March!! It's so far off, but just around the corner. My sentence will be lifted, so to speak. I'll be free! I just have to get there. I'm envisioning Reed on a storm chase now, grunting about how they have to get to the storm before it drops a tornado.
Meanwhile, I've got a couple of dents (literally) to figure out. Someone owes me!
I'm off to go plot revenge. Meanwhile, keep tuned, things are amping up.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
I wanna be drunk right now.
Music: stupid drunk neighbors and American Dad
i don't care what time it is
Day two at work and I feel like I've been run over by a mack truck. My brain feels like mush, I'm irritable at the drop of a pin, and my arm feels like it's about to fall off. Hmm, maybe then I'll learn to do things with my right hand for once. And I'm eating everyone out of house and home. Last night, ate my parents' food. Tonight, I'm at a friends' and he's got some really good food. And alcohol..lots of alcohol. I want to get drunk, maybe I'll actually sleep toinght, but then I won't go to work tomorrow. I haven't slept in two days, and maybe that's where the edginess is stemming from. Thursday night, Zquil failed me. Anxiousness kept me awake. Last night, my phone goes off. I gota find a way to turn off those fucking alerts on my phone. It went off at 12:30, and I was sleeping good. Fucker. Then I hear my dad roaming around the kitchen. So here I am trying to find some peace (and a quicker work route..yes, i'm using my friends for saving on gas. shame on me), and none is coming. The neighbors are Raven fans and they are now drunker than ever and celebrating the AFC moment. UGH. If t he Texans win, I'm changing states. I don't want to hear 30 minutes of news coverage a night of super bowl madness. No one cares.
Thank God i've got my own room. It's peaceful until the neighbors and said stupid friend get rowdy. I'd be drinking right along with them If I didn't have to work tomorrow. I'm exhausted. I need sleep, and to beat the hell out of some people. And three (yes, three) computers for me to play on in here. Too bad I go back home tomorrow night and can't fully use them to my evil potential. I don't know how I'll make it one more day at work. I felt like I was going to drop earlier today. I took some 5 hour energy, and that helped. Actually, I now know the true effects of a 5 hour energy on my brain. This morning I took my first half bottle, desperate to wake up. Needless to say it was all I could do to keep from asking the unloaders 'you need pallets? I've got pallets..PALLETS PALLETS PALLETS' and bouncing on the machine all morning. Nearly got run over by another driver because my mind was going every which way from Sunday. That broke me out of my trance and snapped me back into focus. It was all fun and games until we got locked into certain doors, no back-hauling, and production took a nose dive. UGH!
We didn't have to stay late and the weather sucked, not to mention there's good food, so here I sit. Waiting for 6pm Sunday night. Freedom. Sleep. Peace.
I'm hoping I get some peace once the idiots shut it down. It's weird. It's not home, but it's ok. Closer to work, and a long drive back home tomorrow. Looking forward to next week. Today was good, especially at the end of the day. Hoping tomorrow goes better and I get some rest tonight. I love random blogs like this because I just type whatever comes out, maybe i need to do this more often. Get some shit off my chest, rant if I need to. I love rants. Especially when I'm drunk.
I wanna be drunk right now. Stupid idiots. I'm jealous.
i don't care what time it is
Day two at work and I feel like I've been run over by a mack truck. My brain feels like mush, I'm irritable at the drop of a pin, and my arm feels like it's about to fall off. Hmm, maybe then I'll learn to do things with my right hand for once. And I'm eating everyone out of house and home. Last night, ate my parents' food. Tonight, I'm at a friends' and he's got some really good food. And alcohol..lots of alcohol. I want to get drunk, maybe I'll actually sleep toinght, but then I won't go to work tomorrow. I haven't slept in two days, and maybe that's where the edginess is stemming from. Thursday night, Zquil failed me. Anxiousness kept me awake. Last night, my phone goes off. I gota find a way to turn off those fucking alerts on my phone. It went off at 12:30, and I was sleeping good. Fucker. Then I hear my dad roaming around the kitchen. So here I am trying to find some peace (and a quicker work route..yes, i'm using my friends for saving on gas. shame on me), and none is coming. The neighbors are Raven fans and they are now drunker than ever and celebrating the AFC moment. UGH. If t he Texans win, I'm changing states. I don't want to hear 30 minutes of news coverage a night of super bowl madness. No one cares.
Thank God i've got my own room. It's peaceful until the neighbors and said stupid friend get rowdy. I'd be drinking right along with them If I didn't have to work tomorrow. I'm exhausted. I need sleep, and to beat the hell out of some people. And three (yes, three) computers for me to play on in here. Too bad I go back home tomorrow night and can't fully use them to my evil potential. I don't know how I'll make it one more day at work. I felt like I was going to drop earlier today. I took some 5 hour energy, and that helped. Actually, I now know the true effects of a 5 hour energy on my brain. This morning I took my first half bottle, desperate to wake up. Needless to say it was all I could do to keep from asking the unloaders 'you need pallets? I've got pallets..PALLETS PALLETS PALLETS' and bouncing on the machine all morning. Nearly got run over by another driver because my mind was going every which way from Sunday. That broke me out of my trance and snapped me back into focus. It was all fun and games until we got locked into certain doors, no back-hauling, and production took a nose dive. UGH!
We didn't have to stay late and the weather sucked, not to mention there's good food, so here I sit. Waiting for 6pm Sunday night. Freedom. Sleep. Peace.
I'm hoping I get some peace once the idiots shut it down. It's weird. It's not home, but it's ok. Closer to work, and a long drive back home tomorrow. Looking forward to next week. Today was good, especially at the end of the day. Hoping tomorrow goes better and I get some rest tonight. I love random blogs like this because I just type whatever comes out, maybe i need to do this more often. Get some shit off my chest, rant if I need to. I love rants. Especially when I'm drunk.
I wanna be drunk right now. Stupid idiots. I'm jealous.
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Never enough hours in the week...
Music: Group Therapy Radio. I'm so bored with all my songs that I could scream.
5p
This is the first full week in the new year, and so far, no complaints. I've accomplished things this week: I've gotten a head start on spring cleaning-going through files, and clothes I no longer want/can wear, caught up with friends (some unexpectedly, but much fun was had, and oh yeah, I learned I suck at video games), and may have finally, FINALLY kicked this stomach thing in the butt. I've had it going on a week and a half now, and finally got so desperate after trying everything else in the book, my last resort was to take the pills given to me by my doctor back in August (when it go so bad I nearly passed out in the truck I was working in). I think that finally did it, because today is the first pain free day I've had since the 1st. I was two steps away from taking myself to the hospital, as I'd tried everything else. So, happy I can at least sleep tonight with no worries (and I slept a lot this week).
I am ever closer to my goal of getting out on my own. Finances are coming together, now I need to get updates on the places I had picked out (rent keeps going up, like everything else). I am starting to accumulate more things for the new place (my sis recently donated her old coffee pot to me). This is exciting..and it hasn't even begun yet! I decided this year I'd do blogs on the transition phase alone, as I'm sure I'll be running into chaos that only I could cause. :P I am also thinking about filming the process as I go along, kind of like a video blog (as I have this blog linked on my YouTube channel), so no telling what I'll come across, but it's a very tempting idea...
I am also planning on getting back into shape before summer. That means no more sitting in front of my computer all day (I rarely even watch tv anymore, unless it's one of my DVD's). I can't walk without getting short of breath now (my God, just how much has this hauling job spoiled me?). Instead, I will be doing stuff around the house (God bless having a house with stairs). When the weather gets warmer, I'm going to fix up my bike (since I don't own a treadmill. Yet.), and try to get my legs back in shape. No more sitting around! I'm damn near 30, and refuse to start being lazy. I wanna be 90 years old and running marathons for Christ's sake! Like the 90 year old lady who runs marathons. True story. I have too much energy sometimes to just sit around, and just want to get out and run around. I'm glad I live right behind a park! Now, I just have to wait patiently for warmer weather (and after working in the trucks last summer, please take your time...)
I have my next week already planned out. I hope these next three days at work go by fast. I'm getting ever closer to the day where I'll finally be out of the 6-month period, and hopefully, those bad marks fall off.
Pray for me, folks...here we go again! :)
5p
This is the first full week in the new year, and so far, no complaints. I've accomplished things this week: I've gotten a head start on spring cleaning-going through files, and clothes I no longer want/can wear, caught up with friends (some unexpectedly, but much fun was had, and oh yeah, I learned I suck at video games), and may have finally, FINALLY kicked this stomach thing in the butt. I've had it going on a week and a half now, and finally got so desperate after trying everything else in the book, my last resort was to take the pills given to me by my doctor back in August (when it go so bad I nearly passed out in the truck I was working in). I think that finally did it, because today is the first pain free day I've had since the 1st. I was two steps away from taking myself to the hospital, as I'd tried everything else. So, happy I can at least sleep tonight with no worries (and I slept a lot this week).
I am ever closer to my goal of getting out on my own. Finances are coming together, now I need to get updates on the places I had picked out (rent keeps going up, like everything else). I am starting to accumulate more things for the new place (my sis recently donated her old coffee pot to me). This is exciting..and it hasn't even begun yet! I decided this year I'd do blogs on the transition phase alone, as I'm sure I'll be running into chaos that only I could cause. :P I am also thinking about filming the process as I go along, kind of like a video blog (as I have this blog linked on my YouTube channel), so no telling what I'll come across, but it's a very tempting idea...
I am also planning on getting back into shape before summer. That means no more sitting in front of my computer all day (I rarely even watch tv anymore, unless it's one of my DVD's). I can't walk without getting short of breath now (my God, just how much has this hauling job spoiled me?). Instead, I will be doing stuff around the house (God bless having a house with stairs). When the weather gets warmer, I'm going to fix up my bike (since I don't own a treadmill. Yet.), and try to get my legs back in shape. No more sitting around! I'm damn near 30, and refuse to start being lazy. I wanna be 90 years old and running marathons for Christ's sake! Like the 90 year old lady who runs marathons. True story. I have too much energy sometimes to just sit around, and just want to get out and run around. I'm glad I live right behind a park! Now, I just have to wait patiently for warmer weather (and after working in the trucks last summer, please take your time...)
I have my next week already planned out. I hope these next three days at work go by fast. I'm getting ever closer to the day where I'll finally be out of the 6-month period, and hopefully, those bad marks fall off.
Pray for me, folks...here we go again! :)
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Dear 2013, please be awesome. Signed, me.
9:40p
As I type this first blog of the new year, I reflect on 2012. What a year: I went from working with the grease monkeys in the shop, to unloading trailers of all things, to now hauling; the job I'd chased after for nearly a year. So there's one thing I was able to cross off the list for 2012. I didn't meet my other goal; but no worries, because this year is the year when everything changes. 2012 wasn't my best year, as I had so many low points. I went through a dark period; now I'm seeing some light at the end of a very long tunnel. I'm ready to start over now, and already have a list of goals in my mind for 2013. First priority? Talking to this dentist and ensuring they don't want to break my jaw in 10 places, just to fix my teeth. Absurd, I'd call it. At any rate, I'm ready to do whatever I need to do, just not something *that* extreme. I want my confidence back! :)
Second priority is to start going through my stuff. That includes clothes, computer stuff, work stuff, you name it. It's all getting sort out and organized or thrown out or given away or sold, and whatever else I need to do with it. I have got to get my bearings on things I will be taking with me when I eventually make the move into my future apartment. And speaking of, I'm not yet sure where to put that on my list, but it is up there, and the number one biggest goal of this year. If I had a 2013 calendar in front of me (TVN's 2012 still hangs, now useless, on my wall. 2013 will be arriving in a couple of weeks), I'd be able to exactly say how long I am away from making my one year anniversary at the warehouse. So I'll just say 28 days. How did I make it this far?! A year has just flown by. Back to the original point (yeah, it's there somewhere), this is the time for me to get the ball rolling...
I still can't believe it's 2013...holy shit I'm going to be 30 this year! 30!! Now while I didn't get to go on that big dream storm chasing tour like I'd wanted for so long (expensive as hell, lots of planning, and seats for the Spring season start booking up as far back as November), there's still 2014. I have 10 months to plan my birthday weekend (the big day is on a Saturday). I'm taking a big trip within the next year. I really want to go out and start seeing the world. You only live once, I want to travel like it. I'm going to enjoy the end of my 20's, and reel in my 30's with excitement and a positive outlook.
I've mused enough. Christmas was fun, spent the better half of the morning not concentrated on presents, but the weather. Christmas should not be spent in 'chaser mode' but hey, shit happens, and unfortunately on my favorite day of the year. Nor should the big day be spent hiding out from tornadoes, and some neighbors to the east weren't so lucky. I had fun keeping up with the internet, the tv, and my phone was even in on the action. Once the excitement of heavy winds and rain died down, back to the presents we went, and it was a great day spent with family and just relaxing.
For the first time in a very long time, due to work mostly, I had both New Year's Eve and New Year's Day free from work, and actually spent a NYE not at home. I spent it with my friends Alyna and James, and their kids. I love hanging out with them, because they are so laid back and so easy to get along with. Silences are comfortable, and I don't feel guilty when I ask for something. At midnight, the adults broke out the alcohol and rang in the new year. Three drinks later, I felt so good and so relaxed, but everything else was out the window, and I couldn't even keep poor Yoshi out of the wall on Mario Kart Wii. This is why I didn't even think about driving home. The weather sucked, and I couldn't even move much less operate an actual motor vehicle. Important thing is, we all had fun, and I was glad to ring in the new year with friends again. It felt amazing.
If you're reading this, do me a favor and go listen to that song I have written above. I've been listening to it on repeat for 45 minutes. I know it's a great song when I keep starting it over!
I'm out..my new dvd is begging to be watched, and I'm ready to see what 2013 brings! Happy New Year, bitches! Now go do something awesome, God knows I'm planning to.
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