11:15pm.
Music: "Angels of Tranquility," by good friend James Osborne
I just found out my best friend got engaged tonight YAAAAYY!!! I'm so excited for her. :D I don't think she was expecting it. Now we have to plan her bachelorette party, which is going to kick ass. :)
I had the day off today, and a friend who I haven't seen in almost two years, Jessica (same person I mentioned a few posts back about joining facebook), invited me to the mall. My other friends, Samantha and Alaina, went, too. The only person missing was Heather, who had to work (though we threatened to come kidnap her). We had a blast..it had been AGES since I've had a girl's day out, or seen any of these girls. We did some catching up, ate lunch, and shopped. It was so nice to have a day like this. :) We went into Spencer's and looked at their bachelorette party stuff, and talked about who's party we'd be planning first. Since Samantha was the only one out of us who was engaged (until Heather tonight), we told her we were going to make it a bad-ass party. Funny that we were talking about Heather and how she might be next in line. Stranger things have happened.
We shopped some more, then Jessica dropped all of us off at our respective homes. I logged on FB and found out Heather was engaged. So exciting! Now we have two parties to plan. Should be interesting. :)
Crosby got our first taste of Spring (and please let that be a sign of things to come) with a late evening thunder shower. Not exciting enough to go nuts over, but the sound of thunder was music to my ears.
Tomorrow it's back to work...two more days of closing, then I'm off Friday, and hopefully I can take care of what needs to be done. Goodnight. :)
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Sunday, March 27, 2011
This sucks.
11:30pm
I hate this feeling that I have. It's the feeling of rejection. I feel like everything went wrong, like a failure. I can't keep my manager in place for five seconds so I can explain to him that I need my schedule changed to something other than night shifts. I can't be up front and honest with a friend, and that same friend has been ignoring me for the past week. I posted something on a friend's facebook page something that was supposed to be private information, and I feel like I was punished. I apologized, but I still feel so terrible. These things I wish I could take back or change. I'm depressed.
I knew I should have just stayed at the beach.
My life is okay here, though it feels as if something is missing. Like something isn't right. Katelyn would know what to do. She'd go kick some ass and take names and everything would be all right. :) Robbie wouldn't be too far behind (moral support of course!). I hope I find it someday. This is where the good Lord wants me to be right now, and I'm waiting patiently until he shows me the right path. I trust in him. I'm going to make everyone proud of me when I finally set out on my mission. If you don't know what that mission is, you either don't know me as well as you maybe should or think you do. Screw the people that get in my way and try to bring me down. Though I still feel terrible and there are things that need changing in my life, I'm going to take it one step at a time, one day at a time.
Nothing will ever change that or stop me from doing what I want to do. I'll never stop.
I hate this feeling that I have. It's the feeling of rejection. I feel like everything went wrong, like a failure. I can't keep my manager in place for five seconds so I can explain to him that I need my schedule changed to something other than night shifts. I can't be up front and honest with a friend, and that same friend has been ignoring me for the past week. I posted something on a friend's facebook page something that was supposed to be private information, and I feel like I was punished. I apologized, but I still feel so terrible. These things I wish I could take back or change. I'm depressed.
I knew I should have just stayed at the beach.
My life is okay here, though it feels as if something is missing. Like something isn't right. Katelyn would know what to do. She'd go kick some ass and take names and everything would be all right. :) Robbie wouldn't be too far behind (moral support of course!). I hope I find it someday. This is where the good Lord wants me to be right now, and I'm waiting patiently until he shows me the right path. I trust in him. I'm going to make everyone proud of me when I finally set out on my mission. If you don't know what that mission is, you either don't know me as well as you maybe should or think you do. Screw the people that get in my way and try to bring me down. Though I still feel terrible and there are things that need changing in my life, I'm going to take it one step at a time, one day at a time.
Nothing will ever change that or stop me from doing what I want to do. I'll never stop.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
I need the party police.
Music: Ashlee Simpson, "Burning Up"
10pm
The neighbors are at it again...no, no four wheelers this time, but lots of cheering and talking and kids acting like the little heathens they are. Guess those fuckers are watching the basketball game or something. From their garages. Don't these people have living rooms? Shit.
This weekend is my early weekend, which I can't complain about too much, because the next three days after that, I have to close, which sucks because there goes my nights off to do whatever. Today wasn't bad at all in terms of business. Was nice. Tomorrow might be a different story, though. Spring Break is ending, and the shop might be a little more packed. Thank goodness Emily comes in at 12, instead of three like last Sunday.
I ran home at three to change and grab a quick shower before heading out with Amy. We went to eat, then over to her friend's house for her Tupperware party. Never been to one before, but it was fun. We played games and ate snacks. It was so nice to have a distraction from things going on right now. This certain thing is always on my mind...no matter what I'm doing, there that person is, runing amok, or just staring me in the face, begging me to talk to said person face-to-face so I can get it over with. I don't know what to do.....I really don't. Nothing is ever easy, and this one is a doozy. The only person who can make that first move is me. Now I'm home and it's all I can think of. Blah!!
It's been a long day...seriously thinking about taking some NyQuil so I can sleep and not hear the idiots all up and down the street. I want to SLEEP and not dream about said person, not think about it for 7 hours. It's fun, don't get me wrong...but I need a break from the mental stress.
Why does it have to be so complicated?
That's all for now, keep tuned. Just hope things turn out for the better. :)
10pm
The neighbors are at it again...no, no four wheelers this time, but lots of cheering and talking and kids acting like the little heathens they are. Guess those fuckers are watching the basketball game or something. From their garages. Don't these people have living rooms? Shit.
This weekend is my early weekend, which I can't complain about too much, because the next three days after that, I have to close, which sucks because there goes my nights off to do whatever. Today wasn't bad at all in terms of business. Was nice. Tomorrow might be a different story, though. Spring Break is ending, and the shop might be a little more packed. Thank goodness Emily comes in at 12, instead of three like last Sunday.
I ran home at three to change and grab a quick shower before heading out with Amy. We went to eat, then over to her friend's house for her Tupperware party. Never been to one before, but it was fun. We played games and ate snacks. It was so nice to have a distraction from things going on right now. This certain thing is always on my mind...no matter what I'm doing, there that person is, runing amok, or just staring me in the face, begging me to talk to said person face-to-face so I can get it over with. I don't know what to do.....I really don't. Nothing is ever easy, and this one is a doozy. The only person who can make that first move is me. Now I'm home and it's all I can think of. Blah!!
It's been a long day...seriously thinking about taking some NyQuil so I can sleep and not hear the idiots all up and down the street. I want to SLEEP and not dream about said person, not think about it for 7 hours. It's fun, don't get me wrong...but I need a break from the mental stress.
Why does it have to be so complicated?
That's all for now, keep tuned. Just hope things turn out for the better. :)
Thursday, March 17, 2011
So much to do, so little time.
Music: PR "Return of an Old Friend" ep #49 and 50
4:30pm
First off, Happy St. Patty's day everyone! Yes, I'm sporting the green today, and I've even pinched somebody! Samantha is going to Shamrock's Pub this evening to hear a band play. If I didn't have to work tomorrow, I probably would have gone. Instead, I'm using this day off to just take it easy and relax, because yesterday was so busy.
Yesterday I got up and took care of some financial stuff (yeah, that's always fun, isn't it?), and ran to Walmart to do some shopping. I hadn't eaten lunch yet, or even wrapped up Alyna's stuff for her baby shower. After I got home, it was a mad rush to eat (though I had taken my iron pill, my blood sugar had dropped too low for comfort), and get ready. Amy came and picked me up, and we headed out to Humble. We found the restaurant okay, and we were about 45 minutes early, so we checked out one of the stores in the strip center. At 6, we went inside the restaurant to see if anyone had arrived yet. We met a co-worker of Alyna's, who had set the whole event up. She was really nice. Then everyone (including mom-to-be) started arriving.
We ate, and Alyna and I played catch up, chatting about random things and about the baby. Heather and Alaina were a little late, because Heather couldn't get out of work. Not too long after, Amy and I left and headed home. It was fun..now Alyna is placing her bets on who (out of me, Alaina, and Heather) are going to have a baby next. Heh heh. :)
That's all I got for now. Peace.
4:30pm
First off, Happy St. Patty's day everyone! Yes, I'm sporting the green today, and I've even pinched somebody! Samantha is going to Shamrock's Pub this evening to hear a band play. If I didn't have to work tomorrow, I probably would have gone. Instead, I'm using this day off to just take it easy and relax, because yesterday was so busy.
Yesterday I got up and took care of some financial stuff (yeah, that's always fun, isn't it?), and ran to Walmart to do some shopping. I hadn't eaten lunch yet, or even wrapped up Alyna's stuff for her baby shower. After I got home, it was a mad rush to eat (though I had taken my iron pill, my blood sugar had dropped too low for comfort), and get ready. Amy came and picked me up, and we headed out to Humble. We found the restaurant okay, and we were about 45 minutes early, so we checked out one of the stores in the strip center. At 6, we went inside the restaurant to see if anyone had arrived yet. We met a co-worker of Alyna's, who had set the whole event up. She was really nice. Then everyone (including mom-to-be) started arriving.
We ate, and Alyna and I played catch up, chatting about random things and about the baby. Heather and Alaina were a little late, because Heather couldn't get out of work. Not too long after, Amy and I left and headed home. It was fun..now Alyna is placing her bets on who (out of me, Alaina, and Heather) are going to have a baby next. Heh heh. :)
That's all I got for now. Peace.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Title? Couldn't think of one. So here you go.
Music: "Eclipse," by Metric
10:20pm
It was one busy weekend for us. I'm mentally and physically exhausted. From having our usual weekend business, plus working all the new features and mods that haven't even been set (and managers getting on our asses to get it put out/or put in the stock room, though it has nowhere to go), to chasing down managers and trying to get my damn schedule straight, I'm so glad the weekend is over.
I thought I worked 12-8 yesterday, but early yesterday morning, I got a text from Daniel, asking if I knew I had to be there at 9:30. So I called my manager, and she said that the schedule was totally messed up (gee, you think?), and to go ahead and come in at 9:30. I didn't complain in the least, because I hate closing. I'd much rather open, or have a midshift. Today's schedule was changed as well, but at least that one made sense, because they didn't have a closer tonight. Tomorrow got messed up, even though they said it was fixed, so now instead of 8-4, which was changed to 12-8, I'm now working 11-7. Confused? Yeah, so am I *facepalm*
I really can't wait til this week is over, and it hasn't even started. My one friend promised something for me, but never got back with me, the other I can't even communicate with at the moment, and I'm still kinda miffed at what happend a week ago.
Don't know if I mentioned it in a previous post, and I'm too lazy to go back and read them, but my arm is healing nicely, though I'm hoping I don't get a fucking scar. Last week I was trying to carry too many boxes, and one of them slipped out of my grip, and slid down my arm, givng me the worst 'box' burn I'd ever had. Felt like my fucking arm was on fire! Had to go for the first aid kit and snag some burn cream. It reminded me of the time I was working at McDonald's, and the thing you put the fries on to drain the grease fell into the vat, and hot grease splattered all over my arm. Thought I was gonna have to go to the hospital. That shit hurt!!! I still have a couple of scars (though they are small) on my left wrist.
Other than that, I found an old friend on facebook, so hopefully we can catch up soon. I've been neglecting an old friend who moved back to Mississippi, back into his parents' house, so he could go to school. I'll have to text him soon. I miss my old friends. :(
Well, hope you guys had a better weekend than me, have a great week, and peace, love, and my god why can't I find a song I want to listen to? blah.
10:20pm
It was one busy weekend for us. I'm mentally and physically exhausted. From having our usual weekend business, plus working all the new features and mods that haven't even been set (and managers getting on our asses to get it put out/or put in the stock room, though it has nowhere to go), to chasing down managers and trying to get my damn schedule straight, I'm so glad the weekend is over.
I thought I worked 12-8 yesterday, but early yesterday morning, I got a text from Daniel, asking if I knew I had to be there at 9:30. So I called my manager, and she said that the schedule was totally messed up (gee, you think?), and to go ahead and come in at 9:30. I didn't complain in the least, because I hate closing. I'd much rather open, or have a midshift. Today's schedule was changed as well, but at least that one made sense, because they didn't have a closer tonight. Tomorrow got messed up, even though they said it was fixed, so now instead of 8-4, which was changed to 12-8, I'm now working 11-7. Confused? Yeah, so am I *facepalm*
I really can't wait til this week is over, and it hasn't even started. My one friend promised something for me, but never got back with me, the other I can't even communicate with at the moment, and I'm still kinda miffed at what happend a week ago.
Don't know if I mentioned it in a previous post, and I'm too lazy to go back and read them, but my arm is healing nicely, though I'm hoping I don't get a fucking scar. Last week I was trying to carry too many boxes, and one of them slipped out of my grip, and slid down my arm, givng me the worst 'box' burn I'd ever had. Felt like my fucking arm was on fire! Had to go for the first aid kit and snag some burn cream. It reminded me of the time I was working at McDonald's, and the thing you put the fries on to drain the grease fell into the vat, and hot grease splattered all over my arm. Thought I was gonna have to go to the hospital. That shit hurt!!! I still have a couple of scars (though they are small) on my left wrist.
Other than that, I found an old friend on facebook, so hopefully we can catch up soon. I've been neglecting an old friend who moved back to Mississippi, back into his parents' house, so he could go to school. I'll have to text him soon. I miss my old friends. :(
Well, hope you guys had a better weekend than me, have a great week, and peace, love, and my god why can't I find a song I want to listen to? blah.
Friday, March 4, 2011
Sometimes even Alieve is no match.
Music: "Hush, Hush," by Pussycat Dolls
10pm
The neighbors are really getting on my nerves with their damn four-wheelers grinding up and down our street. For one, I live in a newer developed neighborhood, not the country/boonies. Jesus, does anyone else have to deal with this kind of shit? No wonder one of my neighbors (the more decent, mature ones) want to move out. And when you have a certain someone (i.e. me) who was blessed with a gift from Mother Nature this morning (the growly, moody, I-want-to-kill-everyone gift), it's really trying my patience.
Well, glad they changed my schedule from 9-5 something-ish to 12-8:30 tomorrow. Least I can sleep in a bit, and the neighbors get to live. Tonight.
Meanwhile, earlier tonight while chatting with one of my friends on Facebook, he asked me a question about his girlfriend, seeking advice. Now, I am by no means an expert on relationships. He told me that not only is their one year anniversary approaching, but also his g/f's birthday. So he wanted to know when I thought would be the best time to bring out the promise ring.
Whoa. Usually it takes a lot to shock me, but this question came totally from left field and left me speechless. I really didn't know what to say. So I told him the truth, that I really didn't know because I had never personally been in that situation. Do I believe in the promise ring? Sure. But everyone I believe has to make that decision for themselves, and decide when the time is right. He appreciated my honesty. :)
Has anyone heard the song 'Paper Planes' by M.I.A.? I LOVE that song, and just remembering my two nephews dancing to it..HILARIOUS. There's your bit of randomness for the night.
Want more? Hmm..okay...sticks and stones may break my bones, but you're just ugly so fuck it. Just kidding :P (Yes I got that from the song..the sticks and stones part).
I think the Alieve is calling my name again. Have a good weekend everyone, because I probably won't update til Sunday or Monday. Peace. :)
10pm
The neighbors are really getting on my nerves with their damn four-wheelers grinding up and down our street. For one, I live in a newer developed neighborhood, not the country/boonies. Jesus, does anyone else have to deal with this kind of shit? No wonder one of my neighbors (the more decent, mature ones) want to move out. And when you have a certain someone (i.e. me) who was blessed with a gift from Mother Nature this morning (the growly, moody, I-want-to-kill-everyone gift), it's really trying my patience.
Well, glad they changed my schedule from 9-5 something-ish to 12-8:30 tomorrow. Least I can sleep in a bit, and the neighbors get to live. Tonight.
Meanwhile, earlier tonight while chatting with one of my friends on Facebook, he asked me a question about his girlfriend, seeking advice. Now, I am by no means an expert on relationships. He told me that not only is their one year anniversary approaching, but also his g/f's birthday. So he wanted to know when I thought would be the best time to bring out the promise ring.
Whoa. Usually it takes a lot to shock me, but this question came totally from left field and left me speechless. I really didn't know what to say. So I told him the truth, that I really didn't know because I had never personally been in that situation. Do I believe in the promise ring? Sure. But everyone I believe has to make that decision for themselves, and decide when the time is right. He appreciated my honesty. :)
Has anyone heard the song 'Paper Planes' by M.I.A.? I LOVE that song, and just remembering my two nephews dancing to it..HILARIOUS. There's your bit of randomness for the night.
Want more? Hmm..okay...sticks and stones may break my bones, but you're just ugly so fuck it. Just kidding :P (Yes I got that from the song..the sticks and stones part).
I think the Alieve is calling my name again. Have a good weekend everyone, because I probably won't update til Sunday or Monday. Peace. :)
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Spring is definitely on the way.
Music: news
6.20 pm
I don't know how much more Charlie Sheen meltdown I can take. The man obviously had a cable snapped somewhere in there, and it's all the news/celeb shows can talk about. I say we just take him, Lindsay Lohan, and whatever other fuck-tard insane, crazy celeb and ditch them on a deserted island somewhere, so we never have to hear about their miserable lives and downward spirals ever again.
Sometimes I'm glad I'm not famous. At least if I were, I'd use said fame to do some good in the world.
Meanwhile, back in sanity-land....
Wait. What the hell am I saying? Like my life is normal. :P
I had the day off again, and damn if it didn't go by fast. I took the car and had the oil changed, and was going to wash it, but it never got warm enough. Although it's an oldie ( it's a '98 Saturn), and it hates doing anything less than 50 mph, I love that little car. My only gripe is that there is a leak in the A/C system, which means no air conditioning. The last time we had it charged up, it went out in two days. Two days. That kind of work to fix the leak is expensive, and I have no idea what the fuck I'm gonna do when summer rears its ugly head.
I fucking hate Texas sometimes.
Other than that, there's not a whole lot you can do with only one day off, although I did get a little further ahead in the story I'm writing. I have some more ideas. I'll be posting to FanFiction.net (link in the sidebar), and when I have the first one in the series up, I'll post the link here. :)
The story follows a young girl named Katelyn, and her journey through the PR series. Can't wait to see where it goes.
Oh, yes, and welcome to March. Let the storm chasing madness begin!
More to come later. Goodnight. :)
6.20 pm
I don't know how much more Charlie Sheen meltdown I can take. The man obviously had a cable snapped somewhere in there, and it's all the news/celeb shows can talk about. I say we just take him, Lindsay Lohan, and whatever other fuck-tard insane, crazy celeb and ditch them on a deserted island somewhere, so we never have to hear about their miserable lives and downward spirals ever again.
Sometimes I'm glad I'm not famous. At least if I were, I'd use said fame to do some good in the world.
Meanwhile, back in sanity-land....
Wait. What the hell am I saying? Like my life is normal. :P
I had the day off again, and damn if it didn't go by fast. I took the car and had the oil changed, and was going to wash it, but it never got warm enough. Although it's an oldie ( it's a '98 Saturn), and it hates doing anything less than 50 mph, I love that little car. My only gripe is that there is a leak in the A/C system, which means no air conditioning. The last time we had it charged up, it went out in two days. Two days. That kind of work to fix the leak is expensive, and I have no idea what the fuck I'm gonna do when summer rears its ugly head.
I fucking hate Texas sometimes.
Other than that, there's not a whole lot you can do with only one day off, although I did get a little further ahead in the story I'm writing. I have some more ideas. I'll be posting to FanFiction.net (link in the sidebar), and when I have the first one in the series up, I'll post the link here. :)
The story follows a young girl named Katelyn, and her journey through the PR series. Can't wait to see where it goes.
Oh, yes, and welcome to March. Let the storm chasing madness begin!
More to come later. Goodnight. :)
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Firing on all cylinders. For now.
Music: "Apologize," by One Republic
6:15pm
After nearly 12 hours of sleep last night (I didn't make it far into Eclipse by the way), I'm feeling much better. Strange dreams, though. And I'll be damned if Ed* (names changed to protect the innocent, or until I tell said person face-to-face, if I can ever gather up the courage and get over the embarrassment, lol) didn't pop up AGAIN, but for the life of me, I can't remember what we were doing. Also, my dad and I were in our house when a tornado hit, and the roof came down on top of us (all while giving me advice on being a responsible adult). How we weren't harmed was beyond me. My mother proceeds to come out of the shower, asking what happened, as if she didn't hear the thing hitting the house, then starts cooking dinner as if nothing had happened. I ran out front to try to see if I could see the twister, but found nothing.
Okay, that's the last time I watch the fucking Weather Channel before going to sleep.
Anyone hear about the Dancing with the Stars season 12 line up? Now, mind you, I don't really watch that show unless someone I REALLY like is on there (like when Lance Bass, Helio I-won't-even-bother-to-spell-his-last-name, Joey Fatone and Jane Seymour were contestants), but what the fuck is up with this year's cast? That former playboy bunny, Kirstie Alley, Sugar Ray Leonard, Chris Jericho? The original Karate Kid? Seriously, what were they smoking? Did they just want a season of nobodys? Not saying they suck, I just don't feel as if they have as much pull (or star-power, or whatever you want to call it), as the 'bigger' names in the biz.
Look, the show has been on for 11 seasons. They are obviously running out of names. If it were me, I'd say the show had a good run, and nix it while I was ahead.
Good luck getting ratings this year. That's all I can say.
I had the day off today, and spent it outdoors, as the weather couldn't have been more perfect; sunny, calm winds, low humidity, and mild temperatures. PERFECT. Wish it could last forever. :)
I made some changes to my blog, as you can see off to the side. Feel free to follow/friend me on the sites I've listed. Much thanks! And goodnight.
6:15pm
After nearly 12 hours of sleep last night (I didn't make it far into Eclipse by the way), I'm feeling much better. Strange dreams, though. And I'll be damned if Ed* (names changed to protect the innocent, or until I tell said person face-to-face, if I can ever gather up the courage and get over the embarrassment, lol) didn't pop up AGAIN, but for the life of me, I can't remember what we were doing. Also, my dad and I were in our house when a tornado hit, and the roof came down on top of us (all while giving me advice on being a responsible adult). How we weren't harmed was beyond me. My mother proceeds to come out of the shower, asking what happened, as if she didn't hear the thing hitting the house, then starts cooking dinner as if nothing had happened. I ran out front to try to see if I could see the twister, but found nothing.
Okay, that's the last time I watch the fucking Weather Channel before going to sleep.
Anyone hear about the Dancing with the Stars season 12 line up? Now, mind you, I don't really watch that show unless someone I REALLY like is on there (like when Lance Bass, Helio I-won't-even-bother-to-spell-his-last-name, Joey Fatone and Jane Seymour were contestants), but what the fuck is up with this year's cast? That former playboy bunny, Kirstie Alley, Sugar Ray Leonard, Chris Jericho? The original Karate Kid? Seriously, what were they smoking? Did they just want a season of nobodys? Not saying they suck, I just don't feel as if they have as much pull (or star-power, or whatever you want to call it), as the 'bigger' names in the biz.
Look, the show has been on for 11 seasons. They are obviously running out of names. If it were me, I'd say the show had a good run, and nix it while I was ahead.
Good luck getting ratings this year. That's all I can say.
I had the day off today, and spent it outdoors, as the weather couldn't have been more perfect; sunny, calm winds, low humidity, and mild temperatures. PERFECT. Wish it could last forever. :)
I made some changes to my blog, as you can see off to the side. Feel free to follow/friend me on the sites I've listed. Much thanks! And goodnight.
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