Music: "We're All We Need" - Above and Beyond. (I am now addicted and can't wait for January)
6:20p
One rule of life: just because you want something to happen (and happen NOW), does not mean it will actually happen. Just shows how much control the universe really does have over you. You can't just force something into reality at will (unless you're from the Twilight universe). I've learned that lesson this week. I found a possible opportunity, that I will end up not pursuing, just because of the strict rules I'd have to follow. I don't have time for that, and I'm trying to eliminate stress, not add to it. Sigh, I guess it's back to the drawing board...
And I'd have more time to search this out, if not for working four-day weeks. What pisses me off the most is how the warehouse has handled this year's busy holiday season. I got a MUCH needed break this past weekend, working down with Flow (save for my PE getting taken away when I needed it most, and 3rd party nearly getting the daylights smacked out of them by me, it was a nice weekend). After the meltdown I had with my Ops manager last Sunday, I needed to be down there, away from the rest of the craziness, and catch my breath.
Last Sunday was my birthday, and I wasn't really kicking myself for not taking it off, as much as I wanted to kick 3rd party unloaders that don't know their ass from a damn hole in the ground. I ended up taking out my anger on my manger, Milton, and felt horrible, but he knew where I was coming from and took the issue into his own hands. I still didn't end up leaving until almost 8pm. After a VERY busy four days, I was so exhausted and at the end of my rope, mentally, physically and emotionally, that I didn't make it past blowing out my birthday candles before I was completely gone. I woke up at 2am to my TV blasting. And thus I started out my week with a new mission: I gotta get out of here while I still have my sanity!
I had dinner with my parents and sis and brother-in-law out in Houston. We laughed, and had such a good time. I think the other diners were getting annoyed by us haha. I forgot that we really are a loud, crazy family. I love it. I wish I lived closer to my sister. I miss us hanging out together. And speaking of, she was supposed to mail me my present! Hey! That could be cash in there! Grrr...
I haven't seen John in almost three weeks. I have been busy nearly every day these last few weeks, and between my new priorities and my job, I just haven't had a day or two free to go see him. I miss him, and I wish I could be closer to give my support. It's very frustrating. So, I'm taking a break next week and making the drive up there, my level of exhaustion permitting.
I'm off to conquer yet another crazy work week. This outta be fun, especially when I can play hide-the-PE-from-everyone-else game. Or play jack-with-3rd-party. I'd rather play sleep-all-day-and-not-do-shit game. Goodnight.
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
Flames to dust...
Music: "All Good Things" - Nelly Furtado
3:25p
I swore I wouldn't go again without posting (gee, where have I heard THAT one before), but once again, time just got away from me and just when it seems I have my life in order, the good Lord throws me another curve ball.
After getting set up to finally move out (what would be this month, now), I was dealt a serious blow in August. Nothing I can't get away from or make better, but now I'm re-thinking some huge aspects of my life. I'm keeping all options open at this point, and just letting things happen as they come. No telling where I'll end up at this point, but anything is fair game right now.
Things with my boyfriend are going good as they can be, although his current living situation is stressing out both of us. We have next to no privacy, what with all his 25 roommates running around (okay, it's not really 25, but it feels like that sometimes). They're younger, and like to go out and spend all night at the bar, and come home at all hours, being loud and obnoxious. I can't take it. I'm almost 31 and have all but gotten that out of my system. It's very frustrating. Maybe it's a true sign that I'm getting old. I'm looking forward to the day where we can have total freedom. It will be nice! But no matter what happens, he knows he has my total support. Relationships are a lot of work, but worth it! I'm still learning from him everyday, and it's helping me to grow in so many ways.
I also just learned today that my best friend lost both her parents back in August. I loved them like my own, so it came as a total shock. I'm very saddened by the news, but I know they're both in a better place. I'll never forget her mom, or how funny her dad was whenever I'd crash at their place. Those memories I'll always keep with me. I'll love you always Mom and Dad Taylor, and will never forget you.
And some positive news (because this blog can't be all negative or it'd be depressing), it's finally Fall, which means more Pumpkin flavored food that I can't ever get enough of, cooler weather, and do we have to talk birthdays? I thought once you'd turned 30, you got to stay 30. Forever. Well, I'll be 31 next Sunday. Hard to believe because I never got over the shock of being 30, much less 31. So I decided to keep it a quiet one this year, after the big blow-out, weekend-long celebration I had last year. I didn't bother with requesting the day off, nor have I thought about cakes, or anything else on that matter. I'll be celebrating officially on the day after, when I'm not at work. Going to spend it with family and my boyfriend. I bought my own present, an upgraded iPod touch, so I can read books and listen to music while at work. I'm going to sell my old one.
And I'll be honest, I love posting and writing, because it helps clear my mind and get things off my chest. I don't do it to have a fan base of millions, but for my own personal enjoyment and happiness. I can't promise how often I'll post, but how about when the right mood/time hits, and leave it at that. Until next time....
Random thought/fact of the day: I'm in love with Toothless from How To Train Your Dragon, and want to know how to get my own fire-breathing Toothless. Is that weird?
3:25p
I swore I wouldn't go again without posting (gee, where have I heard THAT one before), but once again, time just got away from me and just when it seems I have my life in order, the good Lord throws me another curve ball.
After getting set up to finally move out (what would be this month, now), I was dealt a serious blow in August. Nothing I can't get away from or make better, but now I'm re-thinking some huge aspects of my life. I'm keeping all options open at this point, and just letting things happen as they come. No telling where I'll end up at this point, but anything is fair game right now.
Things with my boyfriend are going good as they can be, although his current living situation is stressing out both of us. We have next to no privacy, what with all his 25 roommates running around (okay, it's not really 25, but it feels like that sometimes). They're younger, and like to go out and spend all night at the bar, and come home at all hours, being loud and obnoxious. I can't take it. I'm almost 31 and have all but gotten that out of my system. It's very frustrating. Maybe it's a true sign that I'm getting old. I'm looking forward to the day where we can have total freedom. It will be nice! But no matter what happens, he knows he has my total support. Relationships are a lot of work, but worth it! I'm still learning from him everyday, and it's helping me to grow in so many ways.
I also just learned today that my best friend lost both her parents back in August. I loved them like my own, so it came as a total shock. I'm very saddened by the news, but I know they're both in a better place. I'll never forget her mom, or how funny her dad was whenever I'd crash at their place. Those memories I'll always keep with me. I'll love you always Mom and Dad Taylor, and will never forget you.
And some positive news (because this blog can't be all negative or it'd be depressing), it's finally Fall, which means more Pumpkin flavored food that I can't ever get enough of, cooler weather, and do we have to talk birthdays? I thought once you'd turned 30, you got to stay 30. Forever. Well, I'll be 31 next Sunday. Hard to believe because I never got over the shock of being 30, much less 31. So I decided to keep it a quiet one this year, after the big blow-out, weekend-long celebration I had last year. I didn't bother with requesting the day off, nor have I thought about cakes, or anything else on that matter. I'll be celebrating officially on the day after, when I'm not at work. Going to spend it with family and my boyfriend. I bought my own present, an upgraded iPod touch, so I can read books and listen to music while at work. I'm going to sell my old one.
And I'll be honest, I love posting and writing, because it helps clear my mind and get things off my chest. I don't do it to have a fan base of millions, but for my own personal enjoyment and happiness. I can't promise how often I'll post, but how about when the right mood/time hits, and leave it at that. Until next time....
Random thought/fact of the day: I'm in love with Toothless from How To Train Your Dragon, and want to know how to get my own fire-breathing Toothless. Is that weird?
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