Ask yourself will it ever get better.

Music: "Can't Sleep"- Above and Beyond
3:20p

You know, I started writing this up on Monday, was going to come back, forgot about it, so here we are. It's Thursday. The week got away from me, I guess (even though I'd said I was free all week). One thing about last weekend (that I was originally going to write), was I learned the entire computer part of working the docks, and after spending all damn day working Flow for the very first time, I felt cut-off from the rest of the warehouse, and once again was on mental overload. So much to have to know, and I have got to start learning to interact with people again. It's not easy. I got so comfortable not having to talk to people on a daily basis, and while I enjoyed that part, there was still something lacking. Not only that, but upon walking through the doors to Phase 1 on Sunday, my former manager asked me to....yes, haul. Hauling and not being on production was awesome. I spent maybe the first two hours doing that, until Joe needed my PE, because his crapped out. Oh, well. Back to walking again in the blasted heat. Was a tiring day overall. 

So I saw this week that I will NEVER go back to Myspace. Ever. I'm lucky I got all my pics back, but the blog is no more, and that pisses me off, because I had so many memories and important things in there. I SHOULD have backed those up, but a certain SOMEONE never would show me how. A little angry we are, yes? I'm going to start transferring my old pics to a flash drive, because at least I know how to do THAT. I FUCKING hate technology and the assholes that run it. I'm done, and off the soapbox I go....

I lacked on sleep this week, thanks to a sore mouth after having the procedure done last week. So bad was I lacking, I spent most of the week in a bad mood. I ended up catching back up last night, sleeping nearly 12 hours. Thank God...and right before the weekend gets going again. 

Someone made my day 10 times better yesterday....John. I spent nearly all day talking to him, the first since last month we'd talked that long. Found even more things we have in common (does it end? :P ), and did our usual joking back and forth. Even when my friend Jessica came over to swim, I was still in and out, checking my messages. He is off to Brazil next month, and I've never had anyone be that far away from me. I don't like it, but I know it's for his job. It's going to be difficult, but I'm hoping he doesn't have to stay long. He's going to miss my surgery and my birthday, but I know he'll be there in spirit. I miss him....

I learned through a friend today of an opportunity. Not sure what I'm going to do yet, but the pros outweigh the cons by a long shot. I'm going to be giving up a lot, but I'm sick of waiting to get the things that I want. If I don't do this, or if I'm not given the opportunity after all (and my chances look good), then I have to wait a little longer. I'm tired of waiting!! While everyone else gets to start living their lives, I'm ALWAYS left behind. Not anymore.....I don't want to say 'everyone wish me luck', because I'm merely letting this one play out on its own....it's whatever God decides is right for me. 

For now, I'm going to work and just try to get the other more important things straightened out: vacation, surgery, and my birthday. Whatever happens in between will be dealt with accordingly. Until then, have a good weekend. I'll be back soon...