My expectations have failed me.

Music: "We're All We Need" - Above and Beyond. (I am now addicted and can't wait for January)
6:20p

One rule of life: just because you want something to happen (and happen NOW), does not mean it will actually happen. Just shows how much control the universe really does have over you. You can't just force something into reality at will (unless you're from the Twilight universe). I've learned that lesson this week. I found a possible opportunity, that I will end up not pursuing, just because of the strict rules I'd have to follow. I don't have time for that, and I'm trying to eliminate stress, not add to it. Sigh, I guess it's back to the drawing board...

And I'd have more time to search this out, if not for working four-day weeks. What pisses me off the most is how the warehouse has handled this year's busy holiday season. I got a MUCH needed break this past weekend, working down with Flow (save for my PE getting taken away when I needed it most, and 3rd party nearly getting the daylights smacked out of them by me, it was a nice weekend). After the meltdown I had with my Ops manager last Sunday, I needed to be down there, away from the rest of the craziness, and catch my breath. 

Last Sunday was my birthday, and I wasn't really kicking myself for not taking it off, as much as I wanted to kick 3rd party unloaders that don't know their ass from a damn hole in the ground. I ended up taking out my anger on my manger, Milton, and felt horrible, but he knew where I was coming from and took the issue into his own hands. I still didn't end up leaving until almost 8pm. After a VERY busy four days, I was so exhausted and at the end of my rope, mentally, physically and emotionally, that I didn't make it past blowing out my birthday candles before I was completely gone. I woke up at 2am to my TV blasting. And thus I started out my week with a new mission: I gotta get out of here while I still have my sanity! 

I had dinner with my parents and sis and brother-in-law out in Houston. We laughed, and had such a good time. I think the other diners were getting annoyed by us haha. I forgot that we really are a loud, crazy family. I love it. I wish I lived closer to my sister. I miss us hanging out together. And speaking of, she was supposed to mail me my present! Hey! That could be cash in there! Grrr...

I haven't seen John in almost three weeks. I have been busy nearly every day these last few weeks, and between my new priorities and my job, I just haven't had a day or two free to go see him. I miss him, and I wish I could be closer to give my support. It's very frustrating. So, I'm taking a break next week and making the drive up there, my level of exhaustion permitting. 

I'm off to conquer yet another crazy work week. This outta be fun, especially when I can play hide-the-PE-from-everyone-else game. Or play jack-with-3rd-party. I'd rather play sleep-all-day-and-not-do-shit game. Goodnight.