Watching the ice caps melt away..

Music: Restaurant Impossible on Food Network. 
Looking at the time is depressing me.

I never did pick up where I left off from last time. Things on the other side of the world (commonly referred to as Spring) were tense last week, and my anxiety levels shot up so quick and was so severe, I actually am considering asking my doctor to put me back on my medication after 10 years. Everyone at that house is going through their own situations, which causes me to not get a moment's peace (and I go up there to get away from everything..). 

But I believe my own situation might have something to do with the stress. I am two days away from getting my step 2 removed, and I still have no clue what I'm going to do. The flip-flopping is leaving me exhausted, and I'm tired of balancing the pros and cons. But I made it-all the sweating in the beginning and me prematurely panicking and ready to jump ship (and went as far as asking.....that, um, guy....by the dealership. Yes, I sunk that low. I'm still kicking myself for it. The hell was I thinking?)-and here I am. I wrestle with the question 'do I stay or do I go' every second of everyday. I wish God would give me a little nod (more like shove) in the right direction. I need a day off where I can sit down an analyze every angle and weigh one against the other. What do I do to make this work? I'm still unsure....

I'm still waiting on my first Invisalign refinement tray. I've had this set of braces in for three weeks now, and this week I've started getting headaches (whether stress related or braces related I have no idea), and I wish I could get them so I can get back on track with this. I want them off in October. I can't move forward until I get these trays. Oh yeah, and I researched the gum issue (with some scary examples). Gum is bad, bad, bad. Of course, you don't chew it with the trays in. Idiot. With attachments, gum is bad, bad, bad. Unless someone who's been through the treatment can correct me (I'll love you forever...I'm scared shitless to ask my dentist). So looks like that banana gum that Juan gave me from Mexico will have to sit another 9 months on my desk. Looks really good, too. Oh well. It'll be well worth the sacrifice come October! (hope the gum is still good by then)

For now, I'm just here, trying to survive and have fun doing it. I'll update again soon. I'm going to go play Wartune and hide in my castle now.