Let the party begin! (sort of)

Music: "On the Floor,"-JLo
5:20p

I've had another one of those emotional weeks again. From being focused on work an extra two days, to wanting to break down on Tuesday night for apparently no reason other than I was exhausted by this point, to feeling excited for Friday, being upset last night when a friend and I had a fight, then forgetting everything and just kicking back a few Mike's and feeling completely elated and not a care in the world. And now, I'm back to being torn between being excited for tomorrow, and being focused on getting work done. 

So let's work backwards. Sunday night, I left work, so tired, and wondering how the hell I was going to make it two more days. My arm was hurting, two of my fingers in my left hand have been numb for two weeks (not a good sign). But I knew I had to pull through, and I wanted some overtime, for once. I don't remember anything past the time I got home Sunday night. I tried to sleep a little longer on Monday morning, but I had too much to do before work. I went to work, and they pushed us all across the street, where all the holiday action was going on. They threw me to the wolves! :P That was the first time I'd ever experienced DTS first hand, and it was very interesting, to say the least. The place was filled with stuff, and was a mess. I spent most of the night lost, as this was new territory. Welcome to the world of hauling! Around 1am, exhaustion hit, and I wanted them to put me out of my misery, send me home! I left around 2:30, and didn't get home til 3. Went to bed around 4. Night one, done!

I wasn't ready for another day. I went back in Tuesday afternoon, so not feeling in the mood to do anything but go back to bed. Thankfully, I was back 'home' where I knew my way around a little better, but my mood wasn't in top form. Four days I'd worked already, and this was my first five day pull. I was tired, I wanted to go home, go see friends, have a life. I nearly broke down at random moments, emotions all hitting me at once. Pull yourself together! You can do this! 

After taking a second break, I was too focused on work to notice my mood, but oddly enough, I felt better. They finally let us go around 2. Yes! Two days off! Finally! Yesterday had its ups and downs, and after getting into a fight with a friend, somehow, we worked it out, and it'll probably happen again, that's the type of person they are. Said friend starts an argument, says some less than friendly things, doesn't act any better, and I always end up upset. I finally had enough, and ripped into them. I pray for whoever has to be on the receiving end of that when I'm the one dishing it. After all was said and done, I was hungry, so I grabbed a slice of pizza from the fridge. Hmm, there sat my 6-pack of unopened Mike's. Next night is a work night, here's your opportunity, Jamie Lynn. (Did I mention tomorrow is my 29th birthday?) Fuck it, I'm getting drunk tonight!! Damn was that fun! Always drink from the comfort of you own home, kids, but watch those damn stairs! Those are a bitch to climb when you are drunk! Heather would have laughed at me. :P I think I found my bed around 3:30, I'm not sure. It was dark and I wasn't in my right mind. 

Tomorrow is my birthday! I can't believe I'll be 29! I am excited, but I know I have to focus on work first, and that is a bummer. I am celebrating for real next week, when I get all of my friends together (the one that likes to fight all the time will sadly be absent, but more alcohol for me! lol).  But still, when it's your day, you want to have some fun am I right? I am working straight OT hours tomorrow, and that right there is my motivation to make it through the day. I'll be 29, and oh my God where did this year go??  Am I another year wiser? Hardly, but I've learned some tough lessons this year. I didn't meet my main goal I'd set for myself when I turned 28, but I did cross one thing off of my list, and this is only the beginning. 

I am off to wreak havoc elsewhere, while I'm still free from being on a machine all day. Let the birthday wishes commence! :D Oh, and, have a good day. :)