If only I could freeze time...

Music: Group Therapy #20 with A&B (I have yet to find a song I like with this episode)
11:30p

What a day it's been. If only I was firing on all cylinders! I've had all day to straighten things out, and think. I took a moment to pause and think everything through. It's not going to be an easy process, but it has to get done. So here is what I decided:

I'm going to get the worst part out of the way, and go ahead and have them fix the worst teeth..the fillings and crowns. That will be the part I won't be looking forward to. If there was an easier way for them to do it.....

Next will be the wisdom teeth. At least with that part, I know what to expect, and I can at least be knocked out while they do it. I can take a weekend off of work to have the procedure done, and use that time to recover, like I did the last time. That won't be so bad, and I'll at least have happy drugs. Happy drugs! People waiting on me hand and foot haha. 

Then, and only then will I hopefully not run into any more speed bumps, and I can finally take that first step to getting them straightened. That part will be interesting...with the Invisalign, I can take them out to eat, they will be clear, and I won't have that nasty metal taste 24/7. I *hated* that when I had braces. When I had the braces taken off back in 2003 and 2004, I loved what I saw. I loved how I looked. I had my confidence back. I was so happy! No more problems!

Now, it is uncomfortable to eat. To talk. I can't pronounce certain words. It affects my singing. It's hard to breathe. I don't like talking to people, or having my picture taken. I have forgotten what it was like to have that sense of normalcy, all that I mentioned above. It's hard to put into words. I had a brief glimpse of that life, only to have it taken away, and ended back up at square one again. I was angry and didn't know why it had to happen to me. God works in mysterious ways, or maybe I really am just special. At any rate, I'm ready to get this part over with, and get to the 'fun' stuff, if you'd call it that. I'm still super excited for that, nothing is taking away from that. 

I also got my other medical bill straightened out. The lady I talked to was super nice and was willing to work with me and the payment plan I set up. So with that out of the way, that made me feel better today, and I can sleep better tonight. After 4 nights of only 6 hours sleep, it's taken a toll on my body. I have been in and out all day, fighting it. I have three days now to relax and rest. I'm making time for friends this week, and I'm excited. Tomorrow is a girl's day, I so need this! 

Hey I finally found a song I like on here....about time!! The name is "Tracking Treasure Down". I've heard it before, it's not bad. Damn, a two hour show and not one song I liked...smh. 

So I'm going to take all of this one day at a time, and continue on. Like I said this morning, there's still lots to be thankful for, and it could be worse.....but let's not jinx it. 

I need sleep. Tomorrow is a brighter day.