....aaand it seems I found it.

Music: "Thing Called Love,"- Above and Beyond
Midnight

I believe I just found that little spark to keep me going; not just for the next few weeks until I make my 6 months at work, but beyond that. Yes, it's all about attitude, and even though I just saw the numbers on paper, I still have to be sure that this job will be stable enough to see me through to the next step on this journey. So one day the freight might not be good and my production tanks. Then what? I have already crossed that bridge (as mentioned in my last post), I just pray that I can get through the next few weeks. I'm so close...I can NOT mess this up! 

So this week was up and down. I haven't heard anything more about my uncle, but last I heard, he was doing well. After being bummed that none of my friends were available for a mall excursion, I went anyway on Tuesday, and found exactly what I was looking for, so that made up for it. I spent the night with my mom, watching the dog show (because who was really listening to the liar's speech on tv?), and enjoying a quiet night. 

Today I actually cleaned a little bit, and felt better about getting things done. Even got rid of some more stuff, and felt even better. I have a feeling that when I move, I'll have even more stuff in that pile. Hey, money to pay some movers! Who's interested, lol :P While preparing to face another evening bored out of my mind, I got to chatting with a couple of friends, one of which I hadn't spoken to in a long time. My friend Alyna called me, inviting me over for dinner. I got to play with the baby..I can't believe how big he is getting! We watched Once Upon A Time. Interesting twists in the show. Thinking about checking it out, but after my two favorite shows bit the dust, I swore I wouldn't become attached to another show again. It was nice to be in the company of friends, but the curse of having days off during the week hit and I went on home, as Alyna and James have work early tomorrow. 

So I came home and started crunching numbers, and found the end result staring me in the face. But of course I need a second opinion..(thanks, Google), because my mind just can't wrap itself around the answer. Around that number starting at me on the screen. I wasn't sure I had the math right (I am TERRIBLE at math). So yes, I just reached my goal. I have a few minor bridges to cross (more like stones to step over), but I am finally here. Once I get over the shock and see this ball start to roll will my mind finally wrap around the reality that I will be moving...

I have a few more things to cross off my to-do list this week...think I'll go do them now. Wednesday night=crunch time. Do the things you need to do before Thursday night, or as my friend James put it, "do it before it's too late."

I just found my motivation.