Feeling reflective..

10:10p

I'm not sure why Linkin Park's "My December" popped into my head. But here I sit at my computer, listening to the song, and remembering everything with it. The first time I heard it 10 years ago, and the fucker that introduced it to me. He's the reason I became so interested in trance music. I still have the CD he made for me, and I'll go back and listen to it sometimes. Some of those songs are super old, but I forgot how much I loved to listen to them. 

I came home today, after falling ill at work. Today did not go as planned (but does any day?), but could have been worse. I am going to have to get used to working in the heat again, and start eating better if I am going to make it through the next few months. I think exhaustion had a huge part to play in how I felt today. When your body starts trembling all over and you feel like you're going to hurl, might be a good idea to step off your machine and take a step back (unless you're me, and you try to push it, and decide that passing out in the isles is better than not making production). Beforehand, I felt like I was going to drop from sheer exhaustion, even though I'd been sleeping the past few nights. That's what working three 14+ hour days will do to you. I ran by the office and Hamilton drove me up front to the break room. He grabbed his lunch bag and gave me an apple to eat, and some cold water. After about 30 minutes, I felt more normal (for me), and he released me to go home. He even went and grabbed all my stuff and brought it to me. Thank God I'd more or less hit my numbers today. I was plotting revenge for the Flow team (yes, I was going to do it again...see last post), but oh well. I drove home, starving to death and longing for my bed. 

When I came home, I came home to my Facebook blowing up with tornado reports. My heart is heavy tonight for those in OK/KS who were hit by the tornadoes. There were few pictures, as it was getting dark, but daylight will reveal so much more. Images I am all too familiar with. NOAA predicted it, and they were right on the money. I'm waiting on my Youtube page to start blowing up with all the videos. I ask myself, "do I really want to go back to school for this?" I am still unsure. 

Maybe that's where the song came from. It's comforting, soothing in a way. Right now I'm recovering from three days of tearing up a warehouse. I'm tired, sore, and coming home to a good meal really helped. I'm too tired for a shower; I'll probably end up passing out before I can get that far. 

Since I won't be working during the week (yeah, now that I have nothing to do! UGH), I plan on taking it easy and tying up some loose ends. I have some great ideas for the story I've been working on..amazing how much time you have to think while running around on a machine all weekend. Since my aunt came into town, I haven't had time for friends, but now that she is back home, I find that I really haven't talked to any of my friends lately. So that will be changing this week! 

Until then, tonight is my favorite night, because I am FREE. I'm going to go find my bed. Goodnight.