It's a never-ending roller coaster.

Music: Tiff Lacey- "Try Again" Original Mix
10:30p

So coming off last night's post (I stayed up til 5am typing), I had a short time to think. In life, you have to take those risks, otherwise you end up regretting not ever taking the chance. Am I right?

I'm not sure where the hell this week went. I've gotten very little sleep this week. Yesterday morning, I went to bed around 3, only to be woken up by my phone ringing two hours later. It was John. He felt bad for waking me up, but I hadn't heard from him, and I knew that sleep was out the window anyway. He was coming back from Oklahoma. He told me I was the only person he wanted to talk to. Of course, then I really didn't mind being woken up....But was very glad to hear from him, even if it was the butt-crack of dawn. 

Yesterday I found out just how bad your friends can make you feel (their comments did not sit well with me). Then when it came down to re-hashing the details of just how miserable life can be sometimes, you get interrupted with something just plain stupid. I snapped this evening, and posted a profile pic of myself on Facebook with a pretty good rant to go with it. I will tell you, I don't take very many pics of myself. Why? Because right now I am uncomfortable in my own skin. I'm bone-thin, and until I get my teeth straightened, I just do not like being anywhere near anything that has the capability of taking your picture. So I told myself tonight, fuck what everyone else thinks. You know what? I took this picture on Instagram a few weeks ago, I'm going to make this my profile picture. I really liked the pic. So if any of you are on my Facebook, go give it a look. I guaran-fucking-tee you that if you find something wrong with it, then something is wrong with YOU. People are so quick to look at the 'pretty-faced' people, but what about the 'me-people'? What's wrong with us? What? I don't have big boobs or a pretty smile, so that's wrong? People are stupid stupid STUPID! Priorities are fucking backwards, and so help me I'd love to give someone a fucking wake-up call. Oh, and believe me I could make you feel just as bad. Beauty is on the INSIDE, but people don't look at that anymore! If you think this way, you are no better than the other scum in this world. I had someone tell me last week that they think I am beautiful no matter what. That made me feel good. I'm sorry to anyone else who has to find flaws in me on the outside, INSTEAD of what's on the INSIDE, or even concentrating on the very long friendship we have. Come at me. Just come at me. I'm TIRED of people finding every tiny flaw they can think of! 

I'm stepping off the soap box. 


I didn't get anymore sleep last night, either. By the time I got home, typed my last post and went to bed, I had maybe 4 hours under my belt. So after running up to the mall and back, I came home and gave the computer a rest, and popped in a DVD. Before I knew it, I woke up and it was nearly 6:30. Ugh, my schedule is so messed up, and my body is exhausted. So I'm taking my last night off tonight to rest, and get a good 8 hours sleep (even turning off my phone in case John calls-not being rude, but I need to rest). I have another busy weekend ahead of me at work, and I need to be ready. 

Until then, I'm not about to waste my last night off being pissed off or upset. I'm actually laughing at the ones who think they can bring people like me down. Ha, nice try...

Now "Try Again."