This sucks.

11:30pm

I hate this feeling that I have. It's the feeling of rejection. I feel like everything went wrong, like a failure. I can't keep my manager in place for five seconds so I can explain to him that I need my schedule changed to something other than night shifts. I can't be up front and honest with a friend, and that same friend has been ignoring me for the past week. I posted something on a friend's facebook page something that was supposed to be private information, and I feel like I was punished. I apologized, but I still feel so terrible. These things I wish I could take back or change. I'm depressed.

I knew I should have just stayed at the beach.

My life is okay here, though it feels as if something is missing. Like something isn't right. Katelyn would know what to do. She'd go kick some ass and take names and everything would be all right. :) Robbie wouldn't be too far behind (moral support of course!). I hope I find it someday. This is where the good Lord wants me to be right now, and I'm waiting patiently until he shows me the right  path. I trust in him. I'm going to make everyone proud of me when I finally set out on my mission. If you don't know what that mission is, you either don't know me as well as you maybe should or think you do. Screw the people that get in my way and try to bring me down. Though I still feel terrible and there are things that need changing in my life, I'm going to take it one step at a time, one day at a time.

Nothing will ever change that or stop me from doing what I want to do. I'll never stop.